Do you ever get sick of hearing something good about yourself? I know, that seems like a strange question right? I mean why would you get tired of being complimented? I wonder if the great artists of all time felt that way? You know how they say great artists aren't appreciated until they die? Well I'm afraid I can relate. Not that I'm any great artist...or great anything, but I am more than adequate in a number of areas and I am so very tired of hearing how talented I am while attempting to survive, let alone thrive, on unemployment.
Please don't misunderstand. I'm very grateful for the compliment, for any compliment is a wonderful thing to be cherished to boost ones self esteem on low days.... but......
Talent with no financial compensation is not very rewarding when your broke. When I hear "your so talented" lately, all I want to do is scream SHOW ME THE MONEY !!!. Bad huh? I know. I really need to work on my graciousness.
Here's the real bummer. I'm starting not to enjoy being creative. It's like creativity has betrayed me. It used to be something I could rely on to express myself, relieve stress and share something nice with others. Now it's starting to feel like an emotional and financial drain. The compliments are no longer enough to keep me charged. I fail to impress myself anymore. I feel like I'm treading water and have no idea if I'll swim or go belly up. (Ouch!!!! That was painful to read back)
All my life I've heard "Do what you love and the money will follow". I've tried to balance doing what I've loved, which is almost anything creative, with doing what would get the bills paid. So far the money has not followed on either front. I've come close once or twice but somehow failed to catch fire. You know for each situation your faced with in life I believe there's that one moment, one opportunity you have to recognize and latch onto. I seem to consistently miss that opportunity. Maybe I just need glasses ; ) ...........
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