Well, Kinda having a rough start to the day. Usually I'd jump right out there and say " It's going to be another down day" but I'm attempting to be more hopeful lately. I say hopeful rather than the oh so worn out term 'positive' . I hate that phrase " be positive" ! Or "don't be so negative"! I like to think or dare I say believe, that I am realistic. Not positive nor negative but in a flux state of constant re-evaluation and frequent disappointment. The world is an ugly place people, with some very beautiful detours and interludes. It's sink or swim out there whether your in a city or the Sahara.
...So no new reasons for my 'hopefully' very temporary depression. Just the same old not enough money coming in to pay the bills thing. I'm not finding any work and my un-employment check pays the rent with 50.00 to spare.
I've cut my utilities back almost as far as I can. My only "splurge" is that I still have internet, cable TV and a cell phone. I kinda feel the cell phone is a necessary. Looking for a job is hard enough without having to explain why you can't be reached on your cell phone without sounding pathetic.
You'd think that a prospective employer, hearing that you're so broke you couldn't pay the cell bill, would be inclined to offer you the job, even on a trial basis, just out of sympathy. But alas, they just think your desperate.
And let me tell you this , people don't trust other people they believe to be desperate. Apparently they feel your just waiting to take advantage of them. Or worse, steal from them. I find this appalling!!! The thought never entered my mind.
I have actually experienced this first hand. I wanted to volunteer my time and "talents" in exchange for some aid I was receiving and I was turned down flat. All be it kindly, but a definite NO THANK YOU! Wow, what's this world coming to when you can't 'pay it forward'?
Of course I've gone elsewhere to volunteer but the before stated is a sad truth.
Not positive or negative Just Reality as I see it.
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